The first WHY that's weighed heavy on my heart & conscious is my horse. His name is Duke, and he's just about the most handsome horse you'll ever see. He's also on the smaller side. He stands about 15hh tall and weighs about 950 lbs. I grew up on 16hh - 17hh horses that were easily 1200 lbs +. My biggest fear with Duke is that I'M LITERALLY DROWNING HIM when I get on. Horses are only supposed to carry 15-20% of their weight. Right now, I'm about 25% of his weight. I need to loose at LEAST 46 lbs. This boy has been entrusted to me, and I owe it to him to get this right.
This of course also includes the fact that when I first moved to Utah, I was able to fit into a standard 15 inch Barrel Saddle. This is on the smaller size for a woman's saddle. Last year I had to sell that saddle when I realized that I had been naive in thinking I still looked good in it. So I went out at bought a 17 inch saddle (a MENS size!!!). And I still look TOO BIG in it. Part of it is because I carry so much of my weight in my butt and thighs, but regardless, I look fat on my horse. That's just the hard ugly truth.
^^^^^^THIS^^^^^^ is UNACCEPTABLE!!!
And it's COMPLETELY unfair to Duke, who bless his heart, loves me despite of myself.
^^^^^ THESE ^^^^^ were in 2006.
I was in the best shape of my life, and I looked darn good in my saddle.
I WANT THIS BACK!!!
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