My "Why" Wednesday

Most people don't know this, but I get Energy Work done. I've started going every 6 weeks, and it's really helped in my struggle to accept my new reality of being childless. It's also really helped me see things differently regarding my own worth, and I think I have to credit part of my decision to make this commitment on the work that my energy worker has done with me during those sessions. 

So this week my Why Wednesday is me. I'm doing this for me. There's really no other way to say it. 

I'm doing this so I can feel confident again. So I can be proud when I walk into a room. I'm doing this so I can feel like ME again. So I can enjoy all the things that I enjoy... riding, hiking, traveling (the seats on planes are actually very, very snug - NOT COOL!), working out, sitting Indian style in the movie theaters. I'm doing this so I can fold my clothes and not thing "wow, that's HUGE!" and so when I look in the mirror, I can be excited about what I see. I'm doing this so when my nieces and nephews look back on pictures, they'll have some of their Aunt instead of me wanting to hide anytime someone whips out a camera. I'm doing this so I won't be the family member that stands out in family pictures because "one of these is not like the others". I'm doing this so I can shop in the normal clothes section, instead of the plus size. So that when I go into a store, and see something I love, that it will actually look halfway decent on me too. 

I've let the diseases that riddle my body to take control, and I can't anymore. I'm 30 years old, it's time to grow up and take back my life. 

*** Weekly weigh-in's and measurements will be Fridays from here on out. Stay tuned :)