DAY 37: My Why Wednesday

A few days ago I was standing in the kitchen, doing dishes I think. My husband was coming up from the basement and heading outside to work on something outside. As he walked passed me he said "Ya dear, you can definitely tell you're losing weight!" Seriously? MUSIC TO MY EARS!!! 

We all get how important it is to us that our spouses still find us beautiful. And while my husband has continued to tell me I'm beautiful to him, I haven't felt beautiful to him or anyone else for a long time. 

We have made our lives in a place that he knows, what seems like, everyone. He was born here and he was raised here. We rarely go places where he doesn't run into someone he knows, usually someone from high school or an ex-girlfriend. I hate those moments. I cringe each and every time. I'm so sure that each of those people are thinking one thing, "What was he thinking? She's fat!" And the ex-girlfriends? Well there's no need to even type it, we all know what they are thinking, because we are all ex's to someone too. 

So my big WHY this week is my husband. When he married me, he had no idea what he was in for and yet he has stood by me loyally. He could have left at any time, and he chose to stay. He chose me. So I'm going to do what I can to make sure he stay's happy with that choice and that I feel he can be proud to have me on his arm regardless of who we run into.